Monday, June 20, 2011

Hmm, not really a title for this.

I wasn't sure how to title this post. I wasn't really sure if I wanted to post anything about it either but I figured since my blog has been uber suckish lately I could talk a little bit about why. Which by the way is really hard for me because I loathe getting all personal on the blog. I want it to be a happy place, where everyone can have fun and not walk away feeling sad or icky. So, bare with me. 

10 years ago I met my soul mate. 


I can honestly say he is the love of my life, he knows he is. I would do anything for the kid, we have a ton of fun together and I wouldn't want to spend my life with anyone else. 



But, sometimes life doesn't go your way and you hear things as a wife that you'd never 
thought you'd hear.
Ever.

And it crushes you. It crushes your soul. It's like you get kicked in the stomach and punched in the face at the same time and you hear words from this person you thought completed you. So what do you do? Do you beg? Plead? Do the ugly cry for a week like I did? I don't know what to do, that's pretty much it. I want to blog, I want to fix up my house but at the moment, I'm not fixing up our house and it kind of lost its luster. 


I have two precious little girls right now who need their Mom more than anything and so that's what I'm going to do. Between the ugly cries, and wondering what the heck I can do to fix it. 

Which is nothing. It's out of my control. 

I have to just be a Mom. 
And, it isn't fair. 
Because I just wanted to be a wife too.
 

Thankfully Mrs. Nato has gone though this, and bless her little heart even though she lives 5 billion miles away from me she deals with my emails every 5.2 minutes and phone calls and texts at 3 am. She'll answer the same question I have every time "Will I be okay?" "How do I do it!?" "Why can't I make him come back" And, that sweet sweet friend just tells me what I need to hear, even if she already told it to me 100 times. The only thing I know for sure is you can't make someone love you. Even though you tell yourself you will NOT be a statistic and you can do everything in your power to make a marriage work it takes two, and if the other person isn't willing to give it their all then it wont work. Hopefully, something changes. Hopefully God will change his heart, because we honestly do have something really good. Too good to lose. We made vows to stick it out, and that's what I plan on doing, and it's being pulled away from me.

This is hopefully the only time I'm going to vent about it, because well. Like I said, a decor blog isn't really the place for the sads. But if you're the praying type, I would absolutely love an extra one (or two) right now.

139 comments:

Amie {Kitty Cats and Airplanes} said...

Oh dear, I am so sorry. I will absolutely say an extra prayer for you. I pray that his heart is softened and that yours will be strengthened.

Lisa said...

Such a hard situation. I will pray for you too. Hope everything works out.

MJ @ MD School Mrs said...

Oh my goodness Rachelle! You take the time you need and don't worry about your blog. We will still all be here.

Prayers - complete.

Melanie said...

oh, my dear bloggy friend....My heart is sad for you. I will pray that good comes out on the other side for you. Bless your heart - email away....friends are all over this bloggy world, and we all love to listen!

Smiles,
Melanie
Reasons To Skip The Housework
Tinker B Boutique @ Etsy

Cherie said...

sweet friend, I have been there. There is no amount of begging, bribing, nothing that will help if the other doesnt want it to happen. My prayers are with you. If you need a shoulder to cry, to rant at, email me!

krmccord said...

Saying a prayer for you. I know there's nothing to say to make you feel better, but I hope for you to have strength and courage and squeeze your little ones tight.

alittlemoore said...

Big hugs and prayers. I will pray that God will soften his heart and allow a miracle to be worked in your marriage for you both as a couple and for your girls.

jengd said...

I'm so sorry to hear that things are going this way. I'm not the praying type but I'll be thinking about you and hoping for the best. Hang in there. Somewhere, there is a light at the end of the tunnel, I'm sure of that. It's not visible now, probably not even close to being seen, but it is there, I'm sure.

Carolyn @ Adrift on the Lake said...

Prayers being said! God does work on hearts. A friend of mine had a situation and after two years, she and her husband are back together. She never, ever gave up. She sent me this blog and she said it helped her so much: http://emersonandsarah.blogspot.com/

Lilliedale said...

Wishing you the best, and feel free to vent here anytime. I know that I follow this blog not only form the design aspect but also because I like you as a person. take care friend
~Merrilee

Sonya@Beyond the Screen Door said...

Rachelle, my heart is breaking for you at this moment. I will be praying for you, your husband and your family. God is the ultimate healer. Nothing is too broken for Him...neither your heart nor your marriage is beyond His healing power. I can only imagine the courage it took for you to write this post. But this courage has opened the door for many, many prayers. Mine included.

Anonymous said...

My heart goes out to you. Last year I went through the same thing and your blog among others helped give me an outlet I needed to focus my energy on when nothing in my world was going my way and it started a new hobby I love. I will pray for you and your children. It seems you have so many people who are there for you. Lean on them. These are the times when you will learn more about yourself and your strength than you ever thought possible.

Sarah @ The Bird's Papaya said...

I'm so sorry, my heart hurts for . Thank you for being so open, because the fact is, this DOES happen. It happened to a friend of mine recently and its awful. They were the "perfect" couple, the "perfect" family...and he left. I do know though, that it will be OK. You are a beautiful, talented, wonderful person with literally thousands cheering you on. Don't forget that. Much love!

Lou Cinda @ Tattered Hydrangeas said...

Sadly, I have been there too and had two little boys....yes, you will make it and you will be stronger and tougher than you EVER EVER thought you could...because that is just how us mothers roll! I will say prayers upon prayers for you for strength and wisdom...

Lou Cinda

Tania said...

My heart breaks for you and your girls. I can feel your pain as I have been in a situation probably similar to yours. All I can say is don't give up, give it to God. Have faith that your marriage will heal and be made new again. I am praying for you. I would love to talk with your sometime, if you would like you can email me.

kaety-scott (at) att (dot) net

Keriann said...

What can I say really that hasn't already been said. Everything happens for a reason. I'm sorry this is the way things are happening for you right now but I do see you have a good head on your shoulders...that you are a strong woman. Hang in there. I'll send a prayer or two you way.

Comeca Jones said...

Because I was in this place some three yrs ago I ask for God to give you peace in your going through.A great resource out side of the bible for me is by Iyanla Vanzant"Value in the valley" it was great for soothing my soul.

Jen said...

So sorry to hear this. I hope things work out for the best and I will definitely send a few prayers your way!

The Gunny Sack said...

I'm so sorry...my heart is truly hurting for you! You will be in my thoughts and prayers.

Megan said...

Goodness. I'm really sorry to hear about this. You are in my prayers. I pray that the Lord softens his heart and makes him realize what's at stake and that He gives you the strength you need to carry on. Continue to hold your head high and be there for your kids. Praying for you!

The White Farmhouse said...

My heart hurts for you. I know what you are going through. Being betrayed by a loved one like this the worse kind. Dare I say it is worse than having them die. There is no end to the hurt. The wound just keeps getting deeper and deeper. It is not your fault. That is the hardest realization there is. You feel like it is and that you could have done something. Your life has been turned upside down and you don't know which way is up. What you have counted on has been ripped away. It's hard to figure out where to start from now. You will find strength from your girls though. You are strong and you will get through this. I am closer than 5 million miles away and if you need to get away or talk, email me. As for your blog, I think it is good that you were able to vent here. It isn't just a decorating blog, it is a life blog. Life changes. If it makes you feel better to talk about this aspect of your life, there is nothing wrong with that. No need for apologies. I think you will find a great support system here. Remember, people cry not because they are weak but because they have been strong too long.

Patti said...

Done.

Brooke said...

You are a strong woman for writing this post, and I'm sure there are so many more reading this who appreciate your honesty. I'm so sorry you have to go through all these horrible feelings and emotions, but just know that we're all behind you, and think you are one helluva kick-ass woman, and hope that in the end things will be alright.

Mel said...

I've been where you are today. I know how painful it is and no words will ease your pain. But you know what, you will be ok, seriously. You will not be the same person but you can decide if you will be a better person, and I know you will be. You are already fabulous.

Sorry, I am not sugar coating it, 'cause it's ugly and hurtful and life changing. I will pray for you, your girls and your hubby, all of you need some lovin' right about now :) (HUG)

Two Thirty Five Designs said...

My heart is truly breaking for you right now... crying while I read this, we found out horrible news last night about a dear friend so I am a waterfall right now anyways. You will be in my thoughts and prayers constantly. Praying that God's plan will show itself to you. And praying for understanding....

Danielle said...

I will pray for you. We all know you are going through a hard time - vent away if you need to.

southern fairy said...

it's a horrid thing to happen, so sorry.. i know what the girls are going through, i've been there as a kid and it just doesn't make sense no one can make it make sense in a kid's mind.. just keep fighting and in the end you n the girls will be closer than ever.. mum n i were by time we pulled ourselves through xx

Laura @ live.laugh.photograph said...

I am so sorry to hear this.... Life loves to throw us those curveballs once in awhile doesn't it?

I will be praying for you :) And thank you for being so honest and open about what's going on in your real life. You are strong and you will get through this! Lots of hugs!!

Anonymous said...

De-lurking to tell you how very sorry I am that you and your family are going through this. It sucks. Thank you for being brave enough to post this for all of your lovely followers. You know that every single one of us will be thinking and praying for you!

Danielle Smith said...

I am so sorry to hear about this. I can honestly say: been there, done that. I don't know how things will work out for you, but my husband chose to stay and work things out and it has never been better. I did the ugly cry many times and felt lost and hopeless and completely alone. I felt like I couldn't tell anyone because I wanted to protect my husband. Please, feel free to email me with any questions or anything that you may have and I will share the full story. iemdani@hotmail.com My prayers are with you and your family.

The Yellow Cape Cod said...

Sending one up for you and the kids right now...sorry to hear this. You're beautiful inside and out, girl.

Katie Jones said...

Rachelle,

I was in utter shock and disbelief as I read your post this morning. I care for you so much and it hurts me to see this happen to you. I truly believe that The Lord can heal this, if it is His will to do so. Get on your knees and pray for your husband. (as I'm sure you already are) God hears everything you say to Him and He counts every tear you cry as hurt for Himself. Does your husband know the Lord? Could you get him to go with you to some sort of counselor or pastor?

Angie @ The Country Chic Cottage said...

Hugs and prayers for you.... :)

The Christensens said...

I am pretty new to your blog, but tiwon't keep me from praying for your family. You are stronger then you know, and I'll pray that you come out better on the other side. -Jessie

The Balch Bunch said...

thinking of you! prayers being sent up on your behalf and his.

Allison @ House of Hepworths said...

Rachelle,

I'm SO sad to hear this. I'm so sorry for you. {{HUGS}}. I hope he turns things around and the two of you can work it out. Hang in there. We are all here for you and are praying for you.

trophyw.blogspot.com said...

I have no profound words of comfort or wisdom,but my prayers will be with you.

Lisa @ Before Meets After said...

Yes, being married is incredibly difficult as there are always ups and downs. I will say prayers for you and your family. Be strong for those 2 little girls and keep your head up!

Amy said...

I'm so sorry you're going through this. Just know that you have all of us out here in Internetland to hold you up when you feel like you're falling. It WILL get better.

Amy @ A Little Nosh

Jamie said...

Definitely praying for you. xoxo.

Michelle @ Sweet Something Design said...

My heart and prayers go out to you.

Lorie said...

Lots of thoughts and prayers for you! Take care of your girls and don't forget to take care of yourself too!

Christine said...

Oh, no, I am so sorry that this is happening to you. I've been there and it does get better. I've been divorced twice (each one was supposed to be forever) and my two children are from the first. Turns out that my #2 was a chronic cheater, I felt so stupid that I was so devoted to this person that I didn't really know.
Just remember that the ugly cries are very healing, they make you stronger. That you don't need to hide every emotion for your girls, being strong for them means being a good provider, it does not mean that you always have to be stoic. And remember, you complete yourself. No man can complete you, you have to do this for yourself. What ever happens, it will be for the best because you have the power to make it that way. I had some very, very low points emotionally and financially. Do what you need to do, keep praying and you will come out triumphant. Keep the faith :-)

Stacy said...

My thoughts are with you. I am so sorry. I don't really have words... But we all love you and we will all be praying for you.

Randi~Dukes and Duchesses said...

I'm so sorry. I do believe that God loves families and that He can bring healing and restoration ... I'm praying that for you.

Betsy said...

I will be praying for you to continue to find the strength to get through this situation. There is light at the end of the tunnel even though it's hard to see that far right now.

Katie Newcomb said...

Oh Rachelle, my heart goes out to you. Really my stomach sunk when I read your post. I will be thinking of you and sending you positive thoughts. Just remember you are a strong woman and a great mother and your kids are lucky to have you.

Amanda @ Serenity Now said...

Sending the biggest hug to you from Virginia. I don't have any advice to offer you, but I will be praying for your sweet family. You are a wonderful mom!!!

Kadie said...

Oh sweetie I am so sorry! I have been where you are. I wish I knew what to say to make the hurt go away but I can't, no one can but God. Time will dull it but it will be there in the back of your mind for a long time. Hold tight to your girls and to the Savor. Remember that you are loved. You may not like venting here but you will have hundreds of people praying for you tonight and you need that. And if you need to ugly cry do it! Don't hold it in. It may not feel like it, but you are strong enough to get though this and bring your girls through it too.

Love you,
Kadie

Leah said...

Rachelle: I rarely comment (shame on me!) but I check in on you often as I have your blog link on mine. I opened today and read words that made my heart ache. Funny how not even personally knowing someone you can still FEEL so much when you hear their heart break. I have not experienced what you are facing, but I believe in a God that can work in your situation. I have already said a prayer for you and am including you on my daily prayer list.

Elizabeth said...

Oh my goodness hunny! I am so sorry! Just reading your words makes my heart break for you. I will say a prayer for you. Try to keep your head up hun, do it for your girls. xoxo

Susie Q said...

Rachelle I'm so sorry...a dear friend of mine is going thru something similar. Her kids are older but that doesn't make it any easier. Prayers for you and your family.

Heather L. said...

Rachelle, I am so very sorry. You are certainly in my prayers. You are a beautiful, devoted, kind, talented woman, and if your husband can't see that I am sorry for him.

Big (((HUGS))) to you!!!

Vivienne @ the V Spot said...

Ugh. I feel sick to my stomach reading this. I know exactly how you feel and what you're going through at the moment. My heart hurts for you, but I will be keeping you and your daughters and your husband in prayer. I will pray for peace, comfort and healing, and that God reveals His plan for you. Definitely praying. Hang in there.

Krista@TheGatheringPlaceDesign said...

Sending hugs & prayers!

DesignsbyElenaMarie said...

I am so sorry to read this! It does help to write out your feelings, either on a blog or privately. You will get through this.

mommagurl32 said...

i always feel like things like this are like the death of a loved one. it seems like there will always be this much pain and there is no way you will ever be over it. but time almost always heals the pain you thought would never end. ask God for peace and guidance...Isaiah 54:10

Heather said...

I'm so sorry! I'm sure that nothing I (or anyone else) says can change how you are feeling, but know that you will get through it and that we will all be here waiting for you when you feel up to it. You will find happiness and inspiration again, it may just take some time. My thoughts are with you...and it looks like a lot of other people in the blogging world are here too, so you are definitely not alone. All you need to do is remember that!!

Kathy@ Gone North said...

So very, very sorry...
I just happened upon your blog this afternoon... never been here before. But know that I too, will be praying for you. I do know that our God is one who can restore you & your marriage.
Please keep us posted.

allison @ itstoilegood.blogspot.com said...

My heart is breaking for you. Of course I'll say a prayer for you. Sending you a big virtual hug.

Jami Graham said...

Wow...I'm not sure I've ever written but I can say that I have known your pain. Thank you for your honesty and I will be praying for you and your family!

donatella said...

i'm not a good prayer, but I can send a couple of good words up thee and some good vibes to you.
ups and downs do happen, now you're in a 'down' phase, and you'll enjoy the 'up' that follows even better. i'm a positive person, and trying to look in a half full perspective... i did have some (lots) of downs in my life, but knowing that you'll go up again at some point helps to stay focus on what you want to achieve.
you'll smile again soon !

KasiaJ said...

Oh, my heart hurts. I'm so sorry. You're wonderful. You'll definitely be part of my prayers.

Rebecca@This Present Life said...

Rachelle, my heart is so sad for you right now. We all know marriage isn't easy, but sometimes we can't imagine how hard it can be! I pray that you all find peace and happiness together. And know that if you need to talk about it, we are all here to listen. We read your blog not because it's a home decor blog, but because it's YOUR blog. Sending you {{hugs}} and lots of prayers and positive thoughts!

the cape on the corner said...

i'm so sad, and so sorry, that you are going through this. and while you loathe getting personal on here, you should. this is your personal blog. people here support your decor and diy and they will support your "ugly cries" and whatever sad things you need to post about.

Courtney {a thoughtful place} said...

My heart aches for you. Prayers are coming your way. You have lots of support.

Whitney said...

Oh Rachelle, I am sorry that you are going through this. My prayers are with you.

Betsy Thompson said...

Doing loads of praying, Rachelle. Love on those girls and lean on others for support. I am thinking of you!!

Lynn Cooper said...

Praying for you today. And please, keep being honest and open as you want to - it helps others know that they're not the only ones. Lean on the Lord and let Him be your satisfaction and joy.

Sourkraut said...

Thank you for sharing this and know that we're all behind you, even if our hearts are breaking for you. I'm so glad you have a supportive friend to guide you and I know the rest of us are wishing you well too. I for one don't mind if you have to vent and blog about this again as you go through this difficult time in your life. *hug*

Michaela (aka Mama Michie) said...

I'm so sorry you're going through this. Sending a prayer your way!

Denissa said...

I'm SO sorry!! :( I will be praying for your family. Just hang in there and remember that God can fix anything, don't give up!
Hugs & prayers to you!
xo

Karen At Home said...

My heart breaks for you. I am so sorry you are going through this. You and your family roll be in my prayers a you sort this out. Please do not worry about your blog, we will be here when you need us.

MamaBug said...

I am so sad for you...feeling so bad for you. Praying you find the strength to be the mom that you need to be. Praying for ALL of you.

Rhiannon said...

oh rachelle, im so sorry you are going through such a hard time. I will keep you in my prayers my God keep you strong and fill your heart with love and not sadness. XOXOX {{{BIG HUGS}}}

Lisa said...

I am so sorry to hear that. I will be paring for you both. Hugs!

Jenny said...

I'm saying much of what everyone here is saying and am so sad that you are having to deal with this. I have already said a couple of prayers for you and wish you and your girls strength in the days ahead. Please don't apologize for getting personal on your blog - sometimes you need to throw it all out to the universe in situations like this. Hang in there.

Lindsay said...

Oh girl! I am praying for you! May God direct you in the direction you need to go! HUGS

Christy said...

My heart hurts for you and your family. I will be praying for you. And about sharing it on your blog...it just makes you more "real". Never appoligize for that. Hugs.

Joy Tamsin David said...

Awww, I'm just a lurker who marvels at how you can keep your living room couch so white, but this post really touched me.

I am the praying type and I'm praying for you guys right now!

Joy

Leticia said...

I admire you honesty and vulnerability. I think it takes a big woman to let her truth take center stage. Know that you are not alone. I faced a divorce 7 years ago. He walked out and there was nothing I could do or say to make it any different. But YES you will be ok. It may take years, but God will heal your heart, and home. You will be in my prayers. We serve a big God and he can do anything. Keep being an awesome mommy to your little ones.

Lyndee @ A Recovering Craft Hoarder said...

Some of the most difficult trials we will face in our lives are the trials that are out of our control. I think that's that what makes them so frustrating; we didn't cause them. You are so in my prayers. You are not alone out there. There are many that understand exactly what you're feeling.

Tammy said...

I'm so sorry to read about this. I really am. Although I don't know what it's like to be married or to be a mom, I imagine it's really hard to have to deal with this plus also think about the little ones. But you are a strong woman and your little munchkins love you so, so much. Please remember that eventhough it's real sucky right now. I will put an extra prayer for you.

Lots of love,
Tammy

Lena said...

When you are feeling like you have no strength to go on just remember you have two little ones depending on you. You will get through this. I too was in your position and thought I would never make it through. The world seemed so cruel. My children are the ones that kept me going. It's better to come from a broken home, than it is to live in one. Many prayers to you for strength. Many memories you have had of happier times and believe me, although you don't think so now, there will be more to come. Much more. Write if you just need to vent. Sometimes venting to a stranger is easier than to someone you know. caaprilfool(at)yahoo(dot)com
Lena

Becolorful said...

Wow. All I can say is that had to be incredibly difficult to write but cathartic at the same time. I applaud your honesty. It is so natural to want to put on the happy face but your frankness may have made someone else feel not so alone. You will be in my thoughts and prayers but just no that nothing in insurmountable.
Pam @ BeColorful

Donna Hollingsworth said...

Prayers are going up for you and your family right now. God is beside you holding you up! It will get better!

Julia said...

Thinking of you. Hugs to you and your sweet girls. Wishing you peace and strength.

Wendy said...

I am so sorry that you are going thru this!!! Know that you are in my prayers! And I so agree with the others, any time you need to vent we are here!! Praying that God changes his heart and your family heals!!

Anonymous said...

2 years ago I thought my marriage was over due to what I call a breach in vows - on my husbands part. Not a physical one but an emotional one. I thought for sure divorce was eminent but after a year of counseling for me and 2 years for him we are feeling back on track again, maybe even stronger then before. Don't give up! If you have done something ask for forgiveness and wait, if he has done something give your forgiveness if you can and wait. Time heals all wounds. I will be thinking of your whole family.

Rebecca said...

=[ =[ =[

I'm so sorry. I can't imagine the heartache you are going through. =[

Anonymous said...

I just wanted to say you aren't alone. I'm going through this with my marriage and it is a horrible, awful, no good emotional roller coaster.
It is just a matter of time before my husband leaves and I don't know what to do, with 2 little kids.
I know this probably doesn't help but I just wanted you to know you aren't alone in how you feel. It is awful.

Maureen said...

Prayers will be said. Stay strong, and know there is support for you from people you haven't officially met but who care.

Maryann @ Domestically-Speaking said...

Praying for you Rachelle! Praying that God protects you and your girls hearts and that God brings him to the end of himself quickly.

My Cottage Charm said...

Rachelle, I don't even know how to comment on your situation, but please know that I will be fervently praying for you. My heart breaks for you and your little family. I will pray for you to be able to find peace..I will pray for restoration for you and your love and I will pray God will give you joy again.
I PROMISE to send up prayers for you my dear. If there's anything else I can do, or if you need to talk, please know you are more than welcome to click my email any time, day or night.
(((HUGS))) to you!
Missy

Shanade said...

I'm so sorry for your heartache. Stay strong for you and your adorable girls. And feel free to vent anytime you need to; that's what friends are for, even blog friends.

KATIES MOM said...

You know how much we love you both and the girls. Katie and I are praying hard for all of you. Jared is such a kind soul I can't even think what has gotten into him! I've never seen a more suited couple. Sending prayers and love out for him to realize what he's doing. Home, marriage, children being the main bread winner sure it can be hard, but worth so much in the end. Love, Honor and Cherish. Love you.

KRISTA said...

My heart aches for you after reading your post. I bet it helped getting it out and letting your readers help go through this with you. God is who He says He is and will never leave you. I'll say some prayers for you during this terribly difficult time. I will also pray for your husband that he'll see what he's turning his back on and that his heart will be changed. Hugs...from a faithful reader.

Laura said...

First time here. So sad about your news. Saying prayers that your heart will heal. Wishing you loads of tendar mercies.
Although I do not wish your trial on anyone I admire your bravery on putting this news out in "blogland". It is refreshing to see to see so many reaching out to help in your time of deep sorrow. I will continue to pray for your little family. Thinking of you.

Cara said...

Oh mama, I will absolutely be praying for you both. I am so sorry, please know how loved you are by all of us and that we are all your praying warriors!!!

Cara

Caroline @ Rugrats + Royalty said...

I am so sorry to hear that you are going through this. And while you feel a blog isn't the place for sadness...you have tons of (virtual) friends that are here + ready to help you out!

I will certainly say an extra prayer for you.

(((virtual hugs)))

Dorian said...

I have been a faithful reader for a while, but I rarely ever commented. I neede to comment today.
Rachelle, this is every wife's worst nightmare, and I can imagine how broken you are right now. I will be praying for healing in both you and your husband, an opening of eyes (for your husband), a return to what God's way. I will pray for the God to hold you as His sweet precious daughter that you are and that feel his love so abundantly and fully that your heart is rendered at peace. My mom went through this with my dad. It was through her faithful trust in God and constant prayers that this year they will clebrate 27 years together.
Thinking and praying for you.
Dorian

Faith said...

sending prayers for you. i truly hope that things turn out the way you hope. keep praying and keep your head up. you are in my thoughts.

Handy Man, Crafty Woman said...

Hugs to you. I don't even know what to say.

Robin@thesweetestpear said...

Will pray for you tonight, and hope everything gets better for you!

Caryn said...

I'm so sorry. I will say an extra prayer for your family.

Natalie said...

oh Rachelle, my chest feels all constricted just reading this and trying to even imagine what you must be feeling yourself. I want to hug you, call you, sit with you, cry with you... I don't even know you and yet I feel so helpless and it breaks my heart to think about what you're experiencing right now. Many, many prayers and positive thoughts are going out for you right now.

princessister said...

i am praying for you! and just because it is a decor blog doesnt mean that the decorator doesnt need some prayer! that is what we are all here for, the good and the bad. friends through the web! i wish i lived close to you to give you a hug! i pray things get better for you!

Erin @ Two Story Cottage said...

This sucks. Period! :( I will definitely be thinking of you. You are brave to post this and I applaud you for your willingness to put it out there. Praying...

Indiri said...

I'm so sorry that you're going through this as it's never a fun experience. Just keep giving those girls extra kisses and lots of love and hopefully you'll start seeing the other side soon. We do get there eventually.

Brittney said...

Ooh. :( This just hurts my heart! Girlie, I am so sorry. So, so, sooo sorry. I will say a prayer for you. I don't know what else to say. ((Hug)) Your honesty here is touching.

Michelle said...

I don't know what to say either, but I will pray that you have comfort and things work out for the best.

Anonymous said...

I'm praying for you! If God brings you to it, he'll get you through it! You're an amazing gal, hold your head up, we are here for you!

Natalie Cross said...

i pray things shift for you! so sad to hear, regardless of how many marriages break down! don't worry about the blog, it's not important! strength to you!

April said...

I am so incredibly sorry. My heart breaks for you and your girls. I can't even imagine what you are going through. I pray that God will heal your marriage and change his heart, but whatever happens I pray that you and your daughters will find strength in Him. and your hearts will be made whole again. I just started reading a book called 1000 gifts that might be a good read for you right now. You are a wonderful lady.

Jen-CraftOManiac said...

Oh' my heart just did some crushing for you. I am so very sorry, truly I hope God had his hand in this and that it will work out for the "Better" it sounds like this is not something you want at all. I hope the hubs changes his mind and that you stay a family. I will be thinking of you and sure hope you are doing ok and hanging in there. Sending lots of support, hugs, and warmth your way. hugs, jen

Shabby Beach Nest said...

My heart aches for you, my friend. I know words are merely dust in a hurricane at this point, but I hope you can take comfort in the fact that you have a prayer circle of THOUSANDS that are sending warm thoughts and strong prayers your way. You are not alone in this!!! We love you with all our hearts!!!

~Nicole @ www.shabbybeachnest.com

Erin said...

I'm praying for you and your sweet little girls. You will make it through this and you will come out a stronger person from it. Trust in God- He will get you through this.

Amy @ Increasingly Domestic said...

My heart is breaking for you and your little girls right now(as well as your husband). I will be praying for strength and grace for you through this time, for the protection of your childrens hearts and for the heart of your husband.
You are strong and beautiful and all you can really do is to focus on your precious babies right now.

KellyH said...

I will definitely pray for what is best for you and your girls. God Bless.

Clydia said...

I am so so sorry for what you are going through. We serve a mighty God and He can restore your husbands heart and heal your marriage. I'll be sending up prayers for all of you! XOXO

Kim@todayismysome-day said...

Adding my prayers to the hundreds of others who are lifting your family up to God and asking Him to make your family whole again. Only He knows exactly what that looks like. xoxo

Kelsey @ Tattered and Inked said...

Oh how my heart just breaks for you. Me and my husband were seperated for three months last year and I know a bit of the heartache and anguish you describe. As well as the part of having to be mom through it all. Know that you are loved and that you WILL get through this. God is bigger than anything we could possible even know...and He has His hands out to you and your precious girls right now. If you love music- grab some Tenth Avenue North- especially the song 'hold my heart'. Leaning on God and relying on Him will get you through to wherever He has it planned to go. I'm praying right now and for as long as you need it- feel free to email me if you need to chat. Lots of hugs...

Anonymous said...

sending you hugs and will keep you in my thoughts...you will get through this...

Teddie Seeley said...

Oh Sweetie, I'm so so sorry to hear how your heart is breaking.
A piece of advice I would like to pass to you is don't bash or blame your husband in front of your children. Because I know the hurt can turn to anger.
That was the one thing my daughter thanked me for when she got older. I felt she had a right to know and love her father, and she was able to tell that I truly loved her, and was able to see the truth for herself.
Now you need to take time for yourself. Fix yourself up for you, clean the house, and wrap your arms around those little girls.
As you know crying and begging your husband isn't working, turn it over to the Lord, his will be done.
I will pray that your husband comes to realize that he is making a huge mistake.
Will send prayers up in smoke for you and yours.
Hugs for you, Teddie

Aja said...

:( I don't have any great words of wisdom to offer you other than to pray continually and hold on to hope! I am praying for you and your girls and your husband right now. Nothing is impossible for our God!

Steph said...

I love your blog, and I love your spunky attitude that shows through your writing. I'll be praying for you during this difficult time. I've never commented, but I thought now was a good time to start.

ShannonSews said...

We're all out here praying for you and if you need to vent now and again on this lovely blog you've created, we'll be here to listen. I'm sending happy thoughts your way.

Amanda Dale said...

Read this and I am thinking of you and your little ones. though we have never met, I fel your pain just the same. Feel free to vent your emotions anytime . . . we are all here to listen and support you.
-Amanda

{nifty thrifty things} said...

Oh, I am so sorry to hear this! I am not a very religious person, but I do think everything happens for a reason. I hope the reasoning behind this is for you to find back to together, making you two even stronger in the will to be together and loving each other even more!
Extra big hugs from across the big pond!
Vanessa

Carolyn said...

I'm so sorry you're going through this. Sending hugs to you and your girls. I'm sure you will find strength you didn't even know you were capable of especially for your girls' sake.
carolyn

jamie @ backless shirt said...

Ditto. I think it's all been said above. Sending happy hopeful thoughts your way.
:)
Jamie

Kate said...

Sweet Rachelle, I'm sorry for what you're going through. Praying for you, your husband, your marriage, your girls. xoxo

Mel the Crafty Scientist said...

I'm a slow reader and only saw this now and everyone's already said everything I can think to say, but I just wanted to throw you some more love and good thoughts and commend you for your courage in sharing something so personal and scary and big and icky on the blog. I'm sending thoughts and prayers your way.

Thrifty Crafty Girl said...

I have no advice for you... I just wanted you to know that you have another friend in bloggy land who thinks you're awesome. Hang in there.

Emily said...

My prayers are with you.

TRACEY said...

First off I love your blog and try to stop bt weekly... I am so sorry for what you are going through. I have been there just remember to stay strong for your little ones. All things happen for a reason and if it is meant to be it will be. Just let him know ghat you care and then the ball is in his court he may just need to work things out in his own head. Is it the right way to do things?? No but we all make mistakes if you truly love one another you will work through this in time... Lots of hugs
Tracey

The Neglected Nest said...

Hi there,
I've been following you for over 2 years now. I've been featured on your blog (The Neglected Nest). So I feel like I know you, and I'm crushed for you. I hate that I can say this, but I know what you are going through. My H and I separated last August, I filed in January after he made it clear he didn't want to work on our marriage, and our divorce will be final in August. I thought he was my forever. I worked so hard on our relationship, being the best mother possible to our daughter, and making our home a beautiful place to live and love. The betrayal I felt- and sometimes still feel- cut to the core of my soul by the termination of something we vowed to protect and nurture "til death do us part." I'm still in shock that I'm now a single mother. It's taken me 7 months to even touch my glue gun again. But I can tell you it does get a little easier. Keep texting at 3am. Keep calling your support network to cry and vent. And I'm happy to talk more in private if you ever need commiseration. Know that you are in my thoughts and prayers. You CAN do this. You WILL heal. Hang in there.

Julie said...

Rachelle, I was just catching up on some blog reading tonight & came across this. I'm so sorry to hear this & I want you to know I will be praying for you. And even if we've only met thru blog land, you have a friend in me. God bless your family!

Helen Joy said...

I am so very sorry. My sister is going through the same situation and lives with us. I feel like I'm going through it. It sucks and it is so hard. Especially when, like you said, you can't make them love you. Prayers for you. I'm so sorry.

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