Alright ya'll I've tried to write this about three million times so I'm warning you right now this could get lengthy, and it might not make sense..In this silly brain it does though.. Let's go with it.
In the past 16 weeks this is what I've learned.
- When something devastating happens I'm not the strong woman I thought I'd be. More like, crawl in a hole and wear the one Tshirt that was left here and never wash it so his smell wont go away type. Gross. I know.
- It took 10 weeks for me to cry it out. Literally, randomly all day long.
- My family is amazing. Especially those who sat around with me when I wasn't exactly glamorous. (Nasty old tshirt anyone? Yeah..sorry.) Not to mention my house was a wreck.
- My children are wise, wise wise beyond their years.
- Having a true friend to call all day long helps. Especially when she knows how you feel. Let's encourage her to come chat it up with us. She's seriously the scorned wife whisperer. Ha. That'll be her book title when it comes out, just you wait.
- I'm going to get a little spiritual here so if that isn't your cup o' tea bear with me. The Lord, help me prayer is about the only one I said for 10 weeks. Just that. "Help Me!" And you know what? He did. If this little bump in the road was my test and taught me anything it was to let go of control! Rachelle, knock it off! You can't control what someone else does. You control yourself and yourself only, let the big guy deal with the rest. It works out.
- Follow your gut. If your intuition is telling you something is off, it probably is.
- Nothing, nothing is too broken to be fixed. Sometimes it takes the leap of faith and saying, okay. I'm giving it up. I'm giving it to God. You fix it. It takes (me) 10 weeks to cry, another week to get angry and another to be at peace and do what YOU have to do to give it up, and let the person go. If it's meant to be they'll come back. God's got your back. Jump off the crazy train, make the drastic change and let go.
- I'm a closeted Country song fan. Seriously they speak to me. Don't judge.